excercise discipline

This is what Jon says whenever he tells Sam, our dog to do or not do something, he says "Exercise Discipline" These seem like such foreign, scary words. I am the most unmotivated person when it comes to exercise. I know have all of the time in the world to do stuff today and what I am doing? Working... sending evite invitations to matriculation dinners. I just don't know what to do with down time.

I think I should bury my computer, or send it to work with my husband, but THEN WHAT WOULD I DO ALL DAY? I guess I could go shopping- but I don't really need anything- and I just taught a small group lesson on curbing our consumerism. I could read. Except the truth is (and don't tell my former students) it has to be a REALLY good book, or I have to be in a phase to read. I want to get back into that phase, but sometimes I need someone to tell me that I have to read something, then I do, and I generally enjoy it. Why don't you blog readers tell me what to read. Command me into obedience!

See what I mean, I am so dependent on assignments, responsibilities and other people to tell me what to do. Maybe I need a personal trainer. That would be expensive and I can motivate hundred of people to do stuff, but I can't motivate myself. I tried giving myself stickers for when I met points for weight w*tchers, take my multi-vitamin, exercise, and work less than 9 hours a day. .

That worked for 3 days. I am still waiting for this great desire to rise up from the depths of my inner-child screaming - YOU MUST EXERCISE! or maybe I will have a new found love for the elliptical machine. I mean it does feel like you are flying, right? I wouldn't mind picking up some running again, but it is so cold here! It is days like this that I miss 100% humidity. RGV... why did I leave you my hot home? I didn't really like running there either. I always got a headache. At least when I don't work out, I don't usually get a headache.

I need the inner-discipline of some great leaders-
I found this on another BLOG- maybe it will help:
The FIVE PILLARS OF SELF DISCIPLINE:
A- Acceptance
W- Will power
H- Hard Work
I- Industry
P- Persistence

I am working on A- do I really believe that I MUST be healthy? I am not sure I believe that. I got weighed today. I am over-weight. There I said it! Will I gain self-discipline here? I need will power, THAT IS MISSING! What does Industry mean?